Take Me Back to That Old Fork Road
Today I found myself wondering why I feel sad… why all of a sudden nothing feels right… I feel inspired at work and I see a lot of people… but nothing seems to be making a lot of sense… I was not in my world.
I feel like my trial period is over and that I have to face the truth that this is not where I belong… that I should go back… that I should give up pride and stop trying something I will never succeed on doing… because I can do something I’ve proven to have done perfectly before… yup.. I admit it was probably a wrong wish to leave it for a while.
At some point, I regret that I let them get to me… that I let them think that I’m not committed or taht I wanted to do something else… when in fact all I wanted to do was something MORE.
I hope I get a second chance. I hope I get to reverse a wish. I hope I can go back to that fork road again and choose the other way… I hope I don’t get burned anymore… I hope I don’t feel discriminated anymore… I hope I finally get what I deserve…
March 29th, 2007 at 11:09 am
Pia,
Let me get this out and be selfish for a minute: I sure hope your not thinking of leaving California… Don’t leave me!!!!! Not now!!!!
Okay, now that I got that out here’s what I really have to say…and I know you know this already…do whatever YOU think is right FOR YOU. It doesn’t always matter what your family thinks or what your friends think or what I think is right. Only you will know what makes you happy or not.
I think I kinda know exactly what you’re talking about here.. Haha… It really helps to see you more often. I know what’s going on with you and you know what’s going on with me.
I love having that in my life. And I know it will always be… You will always be there.. And dammit, I will always be there for you too. 
we’ll take tons of pictures! 
love yah!
Excited na ako to see the goo goo dolls! Our first concert together!!!!
Dang